The Blue Diary of Her started when...

                 She is just only fifteen but she thinks like mature and too weird that everybody thinks that she isn't normal. 
                   Her life is messy and isn't good. She was too busy in school, in her social community and even on her home. She was not THAT smart but she can easily deal with the people she interacts everyday. She was strong and has great self-respect and respect towards others. She greatly value the goodness of a person and great ethical mind, and lead to her success as a student when she was still 9th grader. But before that achievement, she took too many failures and GREAT miseries during her 9th grade life. 
 
                      I'm Blue, they call me that name cause they think I'm that miserable and stupid. Ehh, I don't care about them cause I don't mind such insecure and such time-waster. I'm doing great but some wanted to drag me down. They just got jealous of the way what I am and what I do stands for. I stand with my principles and dignity and I do put in my mind that nobody can let me down if I'm courageous enough to face em.
                        My burden  started when I almost failed in Math, it wasn't because I wasn't listening in the class at all. The great reason was I was so stupid that I was scared of our math teacher. When I knew that I almost failed, I burst into tears and cried. I was too scared that what if my parents will know. I was too worried that time. I don't even have a chance to defend myself because I don't wanna pretend that I'm that smart or something. It was too damn fu** time, and I was so scared that my knees were shaking when my mother was being called and asked to go in our school. And I was just like saying to myself that I'm too good doing troubles. 
                         My life really sucked at that time that I can't even breathe or took deep breathes when I faced my Math teacher. I thought that my life would be over when it happened to me. 
Good to hear that I was able to hold my strength and be able to handle the things clearly. And now, I learned new lesson that I must be strong and be tough so that I can lift myself up from troubles and miseries. And I'm still striving hard to achieve my goals.